Tired

That is how I feel mostly these days. I actually do feel really good still, just tired. I know I don't sleep as well at night, so I am sure that is contributing to it. As the day gets closer and closer I feel more like it will be later and later. I used to think that maybe, just maybe I would go early. Now that I am at 36 weeks pg, I doubt I will go early. I actually am starting to feel like I will go past my due date. I am not too concerned if the baby decided to stay put a little longer, as long as he doesn't get too big and I can't push him out. I am nervous about pushing out a baby that is bigger than 8lbs. I am not so sure how I will do, but I can continue to be patient for this little guy to come, if he would like to stay put a little bit longer. I am anxious to hold him in my arms but I know that day will come and that makes everything so much easier.

I had a dr. appt yesterday and my dr. called in sick, so I had to see another dr. in the clinci. It is funny because I like my dr. but everyone I know that is pg, (right now that's about 9 people) are seeing this other dr. at the same clinic. Well I was able to see him yesterday and I just have to say that I really like my dr. I know it might just be because I am used to him and his personality and he knows me, but I really hope that he is the one that delivers the baby. (If you deliver at night, you just get the dr. who is on call). Anyway, yesterday was supposed to be my 36 wk appt and my dr. told me that he would start seeing me weekly at 36wks. Well the dr. I saw yesterday thought it would be fine if I didn't come in for another 2wks. I thought that was strange, even after I mentioned that my dr. wanted to start seeing me weekly, but I guess it is fine.

Everything checked out okay, I only gained 2lbs from last time, which is my lowest weight gain yet, since I started gaining weight. My blood pressure it still good and the baby's heart beat is still good and strong. I had the strep b test done and that's about it. The baby is moving so much, so I think he has plenty of room in there still. Although I am pretty sure he is not doing somersaults anymore, but just kicking and punching and wiggling a lot. I love to feel him and every time I do, it just puts a big smile on my face. I know I will miss feeling him inside me after he is born.

Our nursery is pretty much ready for baby. A dear friend gave us some really cute Noah's ark stuff to hang up on the walls and stuff. So we can actually decorate a little more. I still feel like nesting but I tend to be too tired to do most of what I want to do. I think it will get done before baby gets here though, as I think it will kick in harder as I get closer. I can't believe that March is almost here. I am officially starting my 9th month of pg this week. It's crazy but wonderful.

nesting and contractions

Well I think I have started to nest. Our weekdays are pretty busy, so we usually spend Saturday cleaning the house. Well last Saturday, Mike had lots of homework to do, so I just cleaned and cleaned. I wore myself out, but it felt good to really clean the kitchen good and the bathroom. It was driving me crazy, because the floor in the kitchen needed to be mopped, but Mike and I have always done it on our hands and knees. We don't have a mop. I know I couldn't do that 8 months pg. So I wasn't able to mop the floor, but bought a cheap mop when we went to the store, so I should be able to mop it this weekend. The baby's room still needs to be organized. I am feeling more anxious about getting it done. I will probably work on that this weekend too.

I have felt my first contractions. I really had no idea what they were. One day a week or so ago, I just felt crampy the whole day, it wasn't really painful, so I didn't worry about it much. It went away by the next day but since then every once in awhile I feel it again. I asked my dr. about it at my appt last Tuesday and he told me that it was contractions and that I should be feeling them now. My uterus is just trying to get ready for the big day. It is so exciting and getting so close now. I don't need to worry about the contractions unless they start getting really intense and regular, which they haven't. I really don't feel them that often.

I also found out at my last appt that I have gained 40lbs so far. I was really hoping to stay under 40lbs, but I guess that won't happen. I am nervous how big the baby will be, I hope when he reaches 8lbs that he decides it's time to be born. Everything is going so well still. I really hope that everything continues to go well, especially during labor and delivery. I am getting more anxious about it, but am still not very scared. I just can't wait until I have my baby in my arms.

It is crazy to think that this time last year, Mike and I were expecting twins. A lot has happened in the past year and it has all gone by so fast. I remember this time last year, being so exciting and busy getting things in order. Last night I dreamt we had twins. I know that the twins birthday coming up has made them be on my mind a lot. We received a catalog in the mail the other day from a company that sells birthday stuff, and it has all first birthday things in it. I know we received it because the twins birthday is coming up, so it made me a little sad to see it. I can't believe they are almost a year old. I wish I could see them and know that they are doing okay.