Good night sleep

So last night, I had such a good night sleep. It was strange, because for the past week I have had allergies and I have not been able to breath very well when I lay down. At first I thought it was going to be a rough night, but once I fell asleep I slept so good and woke up feeling really refreshed. I have been told that this is a sign labor is close, but I still think it might be wishful thinking. I would love for the baby to come today or tomorrow, but if it doesn't happen, I am okay with that too.

Yesterday I had a dr. appt and I am still not dilated. My feet and ankles have been swelling pretty bad, but my dr. doesn't seem too worried about it. He says all pg women's feet, who live in the South, swell. He told me to only worry if my face or fingers start to swell really bad, then I need to come in right away. My blood pressure was a little high, but there was no protein in my urine, so I do not have pre-eclampsia, but he still wants me to take it easy. Another reason why I hope the baby comes before school starts back up next week. I would much rather not have to worry about walking across campus with my swollen feet anymore. I know the baby will come when he is ready and I can be patient for that. My dr. also told me he wouldn't let me go a week past my due date, due to the hypertension. So I should be able to hold my baby in my arms within the next two weeks. I am so excited. I just feel so ready to meet this little guy. It won't be long now.

A year ago today

the twins were born. They were born late at night, around 11:00 pm and we didn't find out they were born until about 12:00 am the morning of the 13th. I can't believe a whole year has passed. I can't help but feel sad today. After finding out the babies had been born, I was very happy and it is a good memory, since I remember being so anxious for them to come. But I am still sad they are not a part of my life right now, and I wish I knew how they are doing and how T is doing. I still think of them often and pray that everything is going good for them. I hope that T has something really fun planned for the twins today, I am sure she does. I would never have guessed that a year from their birthday I would be waiting for the arrival of another child, one that I won't have to worry about any one changing their mind about. He will be my son no matter what. I am so grateful for that. I really hope he makes his appearance soon, but not today. Today is reserved to remember the twins and they will always feel like they are a missing part of my family. Here is a link to my adoption blog where I wrote about them being born.

No dilation yet

Today I had a dr. appt and he checked to see if there was any progress being made. No such luck. I was hoping to be at least a little bit dilated. The dr. said my cervix was way over to the side, which was strange but fine. It is also closed. This weekend would have been a good time to have baby, since spring break is next week, but it does not look like that will happen.

I really am fine with waiting for him to come when he is ready, but I am anxious to meet him. I actually made a list a week or two ago of all the things I wanted to accomplish before the baby arrives. I have not been able to mark off anything on the list since I wrote it, so I started to rationalize that it would be okay if some of those things did not get accomplished, lol. But I realize now that I will most likely have the time to finish them all, and that it will probably be better in the long run.

I am still really tired during the day, but surprisingly I have been sleeping better at night. I still move around a lot, but I do not always have to get up so much. The days that I have to get up a lot during the night, I usually have a hard time falling back to sleep, but lately I have only had to get up maybe once or twice. But even though I have been sleeping better at night, I still always get so tired by the afternoon.

The nesting instinct is still there, I have a desire to clean a lot, but I usually don't have the energy to do so. Although, yesterday I began cleaning my desk area at work and it kind of escalated to other parts of the office that were just driving me crazy, lol. I hope that I get some energy before the baby comes to give our house a really good cleaning. Our yard is looking so awful too, and Mike just doesn't have the time to get to it, but seeing it everyday is driving me crazy, that I just might have to do it myself soon.

Full Term

Today, I am considered full term. Yah!!! It is so exciting. I know the little guy probably won't come for a few more weeks, but it is so fun to think he could be here any day now. I haven't had any consistent contractions to make me think that I might even be dilating a little. I hope at my next appt. they will check me to see if I am dilating or effacing any.

I am still extremely tired most the time. I am so tired when I wake up in the morning, probably because I don't sleep well at night. Then the tiredness hits me again by the afternoon, but if I am able to take a nap, which every so often I am, it makes it harder to fall asleep at night. I guess my body just needs to get used to going on less sleep. I know I won't be getting that much when the baby comes.

The other day I felt the baby hiccup for the first time. I wasn't sure what it was at first, I thought he was just punching me, but then I realized that the movements were rhythmic, and they were down low (most of his movements are high in my ribs), so it dawned on my that he was hiccuping. It was pretty cool, but he either doesn't get the hiccups very often or I don't always notice them, because that was the only time I have felt them throughout my pg. Most of the movements I feel are him pushing his legs around. I don't think I will ever tire of feeling him move. It is my favorite thing and it always brings a smile to my face.